On my way to Lucia's place to chant, had heart to heart talk with Thomas regrading my issue. Also managed to have my first starbucks in Melbourne, its 1 mth since I'm here. Think this is a treat for me.
Trying my best to smile, did i do a good job?
Had a great dialogue with some leader, I made her the responsibility of my happienss and I've lost my self identity. Which shouldn't be the case... I've tried not to go back back to my old relationship of making decisions all the time, maybe all this taking things easy didn't really show I'm really am. Once again I don't know who I really am? To me, my purpose in life is to do my best for ppl around me to be proud of me or do anything for my love ones. But when all this is not impt to be anymore, there's nothing for me to look forward to.
Now its 4am in the morning, I've tried to get myself drank during a farewell party for a friend, but again I thought it would be silly for me to do so. I drank quite alot and I'm still sober. I'll be heading to Gold Coast in 6 hrs time. This is definitely a good time to spend some time alone, go thro my thoughts and pick myself up again.
To you: I'm happy for you that you've found someone that could take care of you and I trust your choice.
To me: As long as those ppl I love are happy, it doesn't matter to me anymore .
To sum all up, I'll continue to be a better person in life, expand my capacity and understand what is my purpose in life.
"A healthy relationship is one in which two people encourage each other to reach their respective goals while sharing each other's hopes and dreams."
For those who are concern abt me: I'll be fine, I'll update when I'm back from Gold Coast.
4 comments:
阳光先生！ ;]
tough times lately eh. wish i could be there to listen.
hmm
SK share with you one of her favourite quotes okie
"Sometimes we will win
Sometimes we will lose.
Many things happen in life
Should you encounter a set back,
just laugh it off saying,
"Sometimes losing is winning!"
and keep moving forward with a bright cheerful spirit.
Don't let it get you down or stop your progress.
Please remember, however, that it is important that you win in the end." -Ikeda Sensei
hmm you are asking Why did you go to Melbourne? I remember during one of our walks, you said you are going there to grow. You will come back stronger and better than before with all the new experiences.
I read a book on the local playwright Kuo Pao Kun recently and one of the things he said struck me
"尽情吸纳阳光 还爱风雨 － Take in all the sunshine and love the wind and rain". We enjoy all the sunshine days but we still love the times of gloom and storm.
我相信阳光总在风雨后呈现美丽的彩虹。 ;]
cheers,
SK
its so meaningful and encourging to see something like this.
i m pretty touched by ur say sk.
guang, i m glad too to hear u saying that u choose to be happy.
i m wondering how i can stay high in condition always... currently i m gg low again..
Hi SK, good to hear from you. Yupz, I'll definitely grow. Thanks for your encouragement. I've just came back from gold coast and I'm fresh to continue on my journey(human revolution), once again. ;)
Thanks gal, really appreciate it.
Guang
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