Spent the entire day trying to solve bugs (programming) which i have no clue on their causes; my webcrawler uses ejb, something which i have never use before.
This is the 2nd time that I don't know what my program is doing. The other time was during poly. haiz...
I really thank PS for putting alot of effort in this assignment, and Gerald for helping me to setup Netbeans numerous times.
In the end, PS managed to find out what went wrong and my laptop still unable to run. We rushed and completed the basic feature in slightly over an hr; only managed to submit at 11.15pm which is 44mins to deadline.
Felt really useless and helpless the entire day. With term test coming up, everything things look blink.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Falling in love. . .
What is love all abt???
I felt so loved when my buddy bought me a wrist guard for bowling. Its freaking $120, despite knowing that he barely has enough $$$. This happiness is beyond words. . . Its not the $$$ that matter, its the heart that is impt. I'm really touched by him; wanted to pay him back but was rejected.
So after 3 games of bowling, i feel really happy. Able to take a step out of my work desk and take a breather before digging back to projects.
This is only 1 aspect of love, I'm still in the search of a partner who I can hold close to my heart and share all aspects of my life with. . . (Think I've found it, but not sure if she is the one and whether is she ready; still observing.)
I felt so loved when my buddy bought me a wrist guard for bowling. Its freaking $120, despite knowing that he barely has enough $$$. This happiness is beyond words. . . Its not the $$$ that matter, its the heart that is impt. I'm really touched by him; wanted to pay him back but was rejected.
So after 3 games of bowling, i feel really happy. Able to take a step out of my work desk and take a breather before digging back to projects.
This is only 1 aspect of love, I'm still in the search of a partner who I can hold close to my heart and share all aspects of my life with. . . (Think I've found it, but not sure if she is the one and whether is she ready; still observing.)
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Feeling the heat, burnout. . .
Losing strength, losing concentration, losing effectiveness, worst losing time. . .
Everyone around me is feeling stressed out, especially my buddies.
Together, we are falling into the vicious cycle... yet we don't have the wisdom and strength to breakout of it.
Leading to doom.
Everyone around me is feeling stressed out, especially my buddies.
Together, we are falling into the vicious cycle... yet we don't have the wisdom and strength to breakout of it.
Leading to doom.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Overwhelm with assignments during term break.
This week is a week of defeats and tight schedule.
Lots of things are behind schedule and still struggling to finish them.
Was feeling sick for the past few day too.
Too much to handle...
Lots of things are behind schedule and still struggling to finish them.
Was feeling sick for the past few day too.
Too much to handle...
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
A person with good thoughts can NEVER be Ugly.
I received this email from Siew Kuang this afternoon. Interesting...
my all time favourite quote from Roald Dahl
my favouritest children author ;P
and the illustrations by Quentin Blake!"
If a person has ugly thoughts, it begins to show on the face.
And when that person has ugly thoughtseveryday, every week, every year,
the face gets uglier and uglier
A person who has good thoughts cannot ever be ugly.
You can have a wonky nose and a crooked mouth
and a double chin and stick-out teeth,
but if you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face
like sunbeams and you will always look lovely."
- The Twits-
cheerios!
-SiEw KUaNg-
Friday, September 19, 2008
Wedding Day.
Just came back from Siew Kuang's wedding. I enjoyed it as its more of a relax n causal ceremony (ROM) unlike the traditional type.
It was a good time to prove Murphy's law; lots of things were mission, lots of changes in the program. As the emcee, I have to twist my mind and react fast, it really give my lazy brain a good workout. But in the end, i feel that I could have done better. Give myself a rating of 6.5 out of 100 bah. haha...
Abt wedding, I use to have a "funny" idea that I wanted to marry at 24yrs old. Think its becos of my god-sister's long relationship with my brother-in-law. I really envy them, they are like the perfect model that I look up to. As I grew older, I realised that long relationships have its difficulty and challenges. The big 24 had zoomed past, and I don't even have a gf. Although its not everything in life but this also tells me something abt myself.
I use to be very confident, till the point of arrogant. Now I relax myself alot, its like 180 degree change, yet I don't feel a strong sense of identity. I'm actually lost... I don't whether I've become a better person or worst. 1 thing for sure, my appearance is worst than before. Is looks everything? I don't really think so but it appears to be. I always tell ppl to continue polishing their life and character; it sound really positive but its not proving in my life.
Lost in darkness. Can someone shine a light on me?
It was a good time to prove Murphy's law; lots of things were mission, lots of changes in the program. As the emcee, I have to twist my mind and react fast, it really give my lazy brain a good workout. But in the end, i feel that I could have done better. Give myself a rating of 6.5 out of 100 bah. haha...
Abt wedding, I use to have a "funny" idea that I wanted to marry at 24yrs old. Think its becos of my god-sister's long relationship with my brother-in-law. I really envy them, they are like the perfect model that I look up to. As I grew older, I realised that long relationships have its difficulty and challenges. The big 24 had zoomed past, and I don't even have a gf. Although its not everything in life but this also tells me something abt myself.
I use to be very confident, till the point of arrogant. Now I relax myself alot, its like 180 degree change, yet I don't feel a strong sense of identity. I'm actually lost... I don't whether I've become a better person or worst. 1 thing for sure, my appearance is worst than before. Is looks everything? I don't really think so but it appears to be. I always tell ppl to continue polishing their life and character; it sound really positive but its not proving in my life.
Lost in darkness. Can someone shine a light on me?
Monday, September 15, 2008
My friend is getting married.
I'm so excited for Siew Kuang. Thou its a little sudden to know that its this Thurs, but I know the wedding is coming thro our conversation last month. Really happy for her and I was asked to be the Emcee. Ha ha...
Really excited and hope I don't screw her wedding up. haha.. ...
Keeping finger crossed. X
Really excited and hope I don't screw her wedding up. haha.. ...
Keeping finger crossed. X
A slack weekend...
Its been a long time since I went to a chalet. My last chalet was also with the clique at NSmen club at east coast, during Jun 07. This time is Jo's 21st birthday and we gave her a surprise on fri nite, which was her actual birthday date. (I'm waiting for them to send me the photos and will post it shortly.)
This birthday is quite interesting for me in a few ways:
This birthday is quite interesting for me in a few ways:
- It tells me that I'm really old.
- Jo tried to "match make" me with singles gals.
- Catch up with the cliques since i've been missing for a long time, as I was in OZ.
- Felt awkward being so call "match make".
- Lots of gossips and teasing among the cliques as I left with "???". (not alone, with gerald and a few other friends.)
To me: I was just joking when i was going thro the guest list and trying to make a joke when I asked Jo abt anyone to intro me. So the cliques and Jo hype up the entire party and try to tekan me. I personally feel that Love is something that will come when it comes, so dun need to rush it; imptly is to be ready for the by building your own character.
Due to the party, I failed to keep with my daily 1.5hrs on fri and sat.
Fri - I stayed over at the chalet, as last min, Xiao Zhen called me to tell me that Kai Kai is not feeling well to have lesson.
Sat - Fall asleep after bathing.
I've tried to catch up today and should fulfill them later in the morning.
The challenges in life continues ...
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Almost gave up. . .
Its has been tiring every since school starts and last nite I almost gave up on my 1.5 hrs challenge.
Yesterday, I stayed at school to work on my assignments till 930pm. As I was on the bus home, I was so tired that I fail asleep, something I seldom do.
I did tutorial till 1.45am, then I was so tired that I just wanted to lie on my bed. It was so close, I wanted to fight therefore pushed myself really hard to bring myself to the living room. I was happy that the good side of me won the battle and it was a good hour of chanting.
The past weeks was really a struggle and work kept piling up; the fuel i have was my Daimoku first thing in the morning and late at night to keep me going.
Going to create value in every moment of my life.
Yesterday, I stayed at school to work on my assignments till 930pm. As I was on the bus home, I was so tired that I fail asleep, something I seldom do.
I did tutorial till 1.45am, then I was so tired that I just wanted to lie on my bed. It was so close, I wanted to fight therefore pushed myself really hard to bring myself to the living room. I was happy that the good side of me won the battle and it was a good hour of chanting.
The past weeks was really a struggle and work kept piling up; the fuel i have was my Daimoku first thing in the morning and late at night to keep me going.
Going to create value in every moment of my life.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Bad job.
Today is the first DMK that I'm presenting (3 powerful enemies) for the sem and things are off to a bad start.
I dun really know how many ppl really understand and how much they learn. Haiz'
I'm very sorry to those that make time to attend. I hope they have take home the point I wanted to drive at, which is "3 powerful enemies arise due to Fundamental Darkness".
This is what I've prepared:
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3 Powerful Enemy: Arrogant lay people, arrogant priests, Arrogant False Sages.
“Others … will be terrified,” (WDN-1, pg 269), refers to the heart of those who do not practise with an ungrudging spirit and are in danger of abandoning their faith out of cowardice. People who lacked firm resolve and commitment in faith would read the passage abt 3 powerful enemies in the “Encouraging Devotion” chapter and be overcome by fear and apprehension.
We know that these powerful enemies only attack the practitioners of Lotus Sutra, does it means that once we give up practise and we will not be attacked?
Cowardice itself is a state in which ppl have succumbed to inner devilish functions and eventually lose their vitality and wisdom, and even find their whole lives tumbling inexorably towards defeat; unless we stand up with the same resolve as our mentor in faith, we will be defeated by devilish functions.
How many are practitioners of the Lotus Sutra?
How many are genuine practitioners of the Lotus Sutra?
Am I a genuine practitioner of the Lotus Sutra?
Genuine practitioners of the Lotus Sutra correctly spread the teaching of universal enlightenment and fight without retreating against the devilish forces that seek to fundamentally distort the spirit of Buddhism. When we understand the true nature of this struggle, we can naturally foresee that ignorance of the correct teaching – namely, fundamental darkness – will manifest itself in the form of arrogant lay ppl, arrogant priests, and arrogant false sages who will persecute the votaries of the Lotus Sutra.
The Daishonin writes: “The Buddha and Devadatte are like a form and its shadow – in lifetime after lifetime, they are never separated.” (WND-1, pg 278). The activities of the votary of the Lotus Sutra call forth the three powerful enemies – functions that are activated by the fundamental darkness that seeks to obstruct the votary’s effort. Just as a moving form is followed by its shadows, so the votary of the Lotus Sutra is dogged by the three powerful enemies.
When evil flourishes and good is defeated, the function of the Dharma nature, or inherent enlightenment, is extinguished. On the other hand, when good flourishes and evil is defeated, the function of fundamental darkness, or ignorance, is extinguished. A struggle between good and evail is taking place in out lives every moment.
The only way to strengthen good is to wage a continuous struggle against evil.
It is extremely rare to encounter a votary of the Lotus Sutra who struggles against and triumphs over the three powerful enemies. It is hard to encounter a genuine leader of Buddhism. Therefore he urged us to seek out the votary of the Lotus Sutra and make him our teacher, our mentor.
Anyone can tell me any example of individuals that struggles and triumphs over 3 powerful enemies?
The opening of the eyes is the call for us to awaken to the true votary of the Lotus Sutra who battles fundamental darkness and arrogant false sages, as well as to our own true selves as people who seek their mentor and join him in fighting unceasingly against the devilish nature inherent in life.
Lastly, I would like to end with a quote by Mrs Ikeda:
“You may not always win but never give in to defeat”.
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I'll do better next time.
I dun really know how many ppl really understand and how much they learn. Haiz'
I'm very sorry to those that make time to attend. I hope they have take home the point I wanted to drive at, which is "3 powerful enemies arise due to Fundamental Darkness".
This is what I've prepared:
<--
3 Powerful Enemy: Arrogant lay people, arrogant priests, Arrogant False Sages.
“Others … will be terrified,” (WDN-1, pg 269), refers to the heart of those who do not practise with an ungrudging spirit and are in danger of abandoning their faith out of cowardice. People who lacked firm resolve and commitment in faith would read the passage abt 3 powerful enemies in the “Encouraging Devotion” chapter and be overcome by fear and apprehension.
We know that these powerful enemies only attack the practitioners of Lotus Sutra, does it means that once we give up practise and we will not be attacked?
Cowardice itself is a state in which ppl have succumbed to inner devilish functions and eventually lose their vitality and wisdom, and even find their whole lives tumbling inexorably towards defeat; unless we stand up with the same resolve as our mentor in faith, we will be defeated by devilish functions.
How many are practitioners of the Lotus Sutra?
How many are genuine practitioners of the Lotus Sutra?
Am I a genuine practitioner of the Lotus Sutra?
Genuine practitioners of the Lotus Sutra correctly spread the teaching of universal enlightenment and fight without retreating against the devilish forces that seek to fundamentally distort the spirit of Buddhism. When we understand the true nature of this struggle, we can naturally foresee that ignorance of the correct teaching – namely, fundamental darkness – will manifest itself in the form of arrogant lay ppl, arrogant priests, and arrogant false sages who will persecute the votaries of the Lotus Sutra.
The Daishonin writes: “The Buddha and Devadatte are like a form and its shadow – in lifetime after lifetime, they are never separated.” (WND-1, pg 278). The activities of the votary of the Lotus Sutra call forth the three powerful enemies – functions that are activated by the fundamental darkness that seeks to obstruct the votary’s effort. Just as a moving form is followed by its shadows, so the votary of the Lotus Sutra is dogged by the three powerful enemies.
When evil flourishes and good is defeated, the function of the Dharma nature, or inherent enlightenment, is extinguished. On the other hand, when good flourishes and evil is defeated, the function of fundamental darkness, or ignorance, is extinguished. A struggle between good and evail is taking place in out lives every moment.
The only way to strengthen good is to wage a continuous struggle against evil.
It is extremely rare to encounter a votary of the Lotus Sutra who struggles against and triumphs over the three powerful enemies. It is hard to encounter a genuine leader of Buddhism. Therefore he urged us to seek out the votary of the Lotus Sutra and make him our teacher, our mentor.
Anyone can tell me any example of individuals that struggles and triumphs over 3 powerful enemies?
The opening of the eyes is the call for us to awaken to the true votary of the Lotus Sutra who battles fundamental darkness and arrogant false sages, as well as to our own true selves as people who seek their mentor and join him in fighting unceasingly against the devilish nature inherent in life.
Lastly, I would like to end with a quote by Mrs Ikeda:
“You may not always win but never give in to defeat”.
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I'll do better next time.
First Campus Connection for this Sem.
Guess what we are playing?
Its Shi Zhi Lu Kuo, along Orchard Road. My teams consists of Evelyn, Serene, Shan Mei, Justin, Benz and myself.
The dishes:
2) Ice-cream
3) Milk
4) Kaya toast
5) Tuna Sandwich
6) Ham
Lastly the ending dish:
Mr Bean Soya Bean Milk
That's all folks !
Its Shi Zhi Lu Kuo, along Orchard Road. My teams consists of Evelyn, Serene, Shan Mei, Justin, Benz and myself.
The dishes:
1) Sushi
2) Ice-cream
3) Milk
4) Kaya toast
5) Tuna Sandwich
6) Ham
Lastly the ending dish:Mr Bean Soya Bean Milk
We can in third but we had lots of fun. Thanks to the organising committee.
These are the bonus pic to received extra pts. A total 8 venues, do u recognise where is the place?
That's all folks !Friday, September 5, 2008
Putting lost thoughts in place.
Lots of things happending this week and up coming week.
Lots of assignment to hand in. Basically at least 1 each week.
Determine to perform my best this sem.
Attend Deyi's (my lifeguard friend, where we used work together in Jurong East Swimming complex) wedding like 2 hrs ago. Lots of thoughts: like getting old liao; who will be walking beside me down the aisle; etc. --> had the chance to drink a fair bit of beer but still have to work on my proj for tomorrow discussion.
Sleep get shorter and shorter.
A real challenge to chant 1.5 hrs a day, compared to a few mths ago where I can chant 2 hrs quite comfortablely.
Looking forward and only time will tell whether my effort pays off.
Lots of assignment to hand in. Basically at least 1 each week.
Determine to perform my best this sem.
Attend Deyi's (my lifeguard friend, where we used work together in Jurong East Swimming complex) wedding like 2 hrs ago. Lots of thoughts: like getting old liao; who will be walking beside me down the aisle; etc. --> had the chance to drink a fair bit of beer but still have to work on my proj for tomorrow discussion.
Sleep get shorter and shorter.
A real challenge to chant 1.5 hrs a day, compared to a few mths ago where I can chant 2 hrs quite comfortablely.
Looking forward and only time will tell whether my effort pays off.
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