A Story of my past. . .

During my poly days, there was a period of time that I started soccer betting. Then I really throw in all my energy into it, I even use lesson time to read up on the teams so that I'm well prepared before placing the bet. Initially I lost a little but becos I put in extra effort, I begin my winning streak. Things were really going very well for me and my buddy who taught how to bet.

As all good things comes to an end, both of us started losing. For me, I only lost a little; but becos of my thinking that I've done it before(won bets), I can do it again and is determined to win back those $$$ for my buddy. Instead of winning, we lost even more; we ended up losing all our winnings and even incurred debts.

During that period of time I kept asking myself, "Why I didn't stop when I win?"; "Why I didn't stop immediately when I lost?"; "Why did I have the ideal that I'll win again?"

All this funny/interesting thoughts was in my head then. I didn't have an answer to them.

It started from losing a few hundreds to abt a thousand odd, if i had stop when I started losing, I wouldn't be losing so much. This is also due to the fact that I'm stubborn to hold on to my believe. If I put those $$$ that I've decided to bet on in a bank/other investments, things will definitely turn out better. Becos I'm unable to see things from a bigger picture, it cost me a great deal.

On the other hand, when I really accept that I've lost and I can do nothing about it. Only when I let go then I found out all that my thoughts are all on the wrong track. I didn't dare to tell anyone but only to my gf then. She did warn me but I didn't heed her advice; thou she is able to see the bigger picture.

Ones' mind may lose their ability to rationalise when they are in a micro level, they may not be able to understand as they are too focus on a small part of the problem that they forgot abt the bigger one.

This is truly in my case. I urge those who are still in their little circle, open up their heart and listen to those around them. Let them guide u out of your small circle, in return, u will see the bigger picture.