Wedding Day.

Just came back from Siew Kuang's wedding. I enjoyed it as its more of a relax n causal ceremony (ROM) unlike the traditional type.

It was a good time to prove Murphy's law; lots of things were mission, lots of changes in the program. As the emcee, I have to twist my mind and react fast, it really give my lazy brain a good workout. But in the end, i feel that I could have done better. Give myself a rating of 6.5 out of 100 bah. haha...

Abt wedding, I use to have a "funny" idea that I wanted to marry at 24yrs old. Think its becos of my god-sister's long relationship with my brother-in-law. I really envy them, they are like the perfect model that I look up to. As I grew older, I realised that long relationships have its difficulty and challenges. The big 24 had zoomed past, and I don't even have a gf. Although its not everything in life but this also tells me something abt myself.

I use to be very confident, till the point of arrogant. Now I relax myself alot, its like 180 degree change, yet I don't feel a strong sense of identity. I'm actually lost... I don't whether I've become a better person or worst. 1 thing for sure, my appearance is worst than before. Is looks everything? I don't really think so but it appears to be. I always tell ppl to continue polishing their life and character; it sound really positive but its not proving in my life.

Lost in darkness. Can someone shine a light on me?